Tuesday, April 05, 2005
life is...
hmm... life is getting stretchy. seriously in my 4 yrs, its gonna be the first time i actually got 4 days of practice and i have to master the art of fen shen, to take care of the whole EL grp in 2 diff places. so tiring. anyway gonna juz leave the drama side to Shabana ( i do have taken a liking to her ) and look after the props people. reali thank God for grace. monday my bus broke down and thankfully it was at Sel's hse area so didnt end up late. and for today reali thank God tat was almost late but got lifts in. Praise the Lord!drawing me closer to you i feel your power renews... teach me how to live let your presence fill me once again...
that innocent smile which captivates
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Sunday, March 27, 2005
recommitment?
heyhey. i'm back to blogging i guess... coz of a promise as well... but nowadays got into a habit of diary writing... so...its Easter! was Ruifeng's b'day yday and he came for da celebration wif me as well. he didnt get saved... BUT at least a work was done in his heart! and really applause go out to the drama team for their creativty and innovation and of course, our Elohim God.hmm... my Good Friday was tat i went down to church to serve. though i didnt go down to the service ( a bit sad ) but i've gained a new experience... i became a traffic marshall... and in a way a few ppl were put under me and as usual... i didnt look my age! guess its a blessing bahz. ^^ and a great thing is dat Uncle Eugene ( not tat he is tat old ) is gonna put me to do busing! Praise God! quite a few projects on hand actually and gotta tink of a way to fix those music up for EL. btw... i just realized tat lighting can be so fun but yet so tedious... and for a reason or another, Ruifeng started calling me mum over smses. gosh! and can u imagine tat he was the page boy when i was the flower girl foe Ai Li jie jie's wedding?!? ( tats wat he claims. anyway he is younger den me. hehe. so i can bully him?!?) =p guess i better end here bahz... so tired... dun wanna be late for school again esp i got my silver VP tag le (will go RC if i'm late one more time... ). hmm... and my bible reading as well...i realized one stupid thing i did... i plug my fone into the charger but didnt on the switch and i juz realized it ( which is after an hour?!? ) haha. but anyway wat i reali wanna say is tat Ruifeng actually msg me to say thanks for yesterday. hope it has been a memorable one for him though... Jesus, I give you my heart
Never we be apart
Move in me
Change my life
Jesus, i give you my all
cant recall the rest. but its really very applicable and true for myself... *ruiz*
that innocent smile which captivates
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Sunday, January 09, 2005
090104
juz as i promised, i'm here to update... ... ( but i'll genrally summarize evrything kkz?)
2004 indeed has been a good year for me filled with many breakthroughs, in finances, education and in many other areas as well. speaking of that, i just got my merit bursary of $250 today. Praise the Lord! holidays has been awesome with all the ongoing events like the SYNERGY zone camp, thanksgiving and but of course, the Christmas Spectaculars! during the camp there was an equal mix of both physical and spiritual aspects. the bonding indeed was great. but my deepest regret that i didnt get to participate in the 'end-time' game coz i had a headache b4 i turned in. but i renewed my love for God! and really 3 cheers for the leaders in taking effort to plan the camp. hip hip hurray!
Christmas was once again amazing! the drama team was awe-some, esp wif the Long Men kE Zhan. haha. but what summed it all up was the gift, tis precious gift that God has given us, and that is JESUS. thank God for He is good! Pst Kong's preaching was very good and now i fully comprehend the joy of seeing our dear ones getting saved and the burden for them. my goal 2005 is to get 15 ppl saved into the kingdom.
zone thanksgiving was swell. viewed the video of the camp. was awesome and funny. thanks Decheng, YangZheng and... ! was wonderful to really show appreciation for all our leaders. thank you once again!
school has started all over once again. its me entering into the final lap of secondary school life... finally managed to finish all my hols hmwk le. phewie. had a physics test on thursday but thank God it was 40 MCQs so reali praying for good results. conducted cca auditions on tuesday and thursday. i was in-charge of poetry reading. was wowed by my juniors though. been dead tired the past week. *yawns* had many things on and my hp bill will shoot cause i've not been wise bahz. but not as much compared to last mth though. :p also made my first visit to two eateries, namely: Kenny Rogers and Cafe Cartel. hmm... but still got places that i've yet been to... like NYDC, Fish & co. , Nooch etc bahz. hehz.
yday finally went to do tpt wif Sis Waicheng le. was really glad to see her but according to her, she will not do e01 le coz she will serve on sunday instead as she wants to spend time wif her kids. but am going to reali miss her. though she is much older den i am, i can feel a kind of closeness to her, very different frm the rest dat i've felt b4. its just so easy to talk to her and to share. she's really been more than accomodating towards me... juz wanna say a word of thanks here. thank you Sis Wai Cheng!
signing off...
ruiz
that innocent smile which captivates
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kindness
You represent... kindness.You're a very gentle, kind, and caring individual.
You truely care about people and are generally
well-liked. Though sometimes you may be
perceived as weak, you truely have a strong
heart and a good desire to help others.
What feeling do you represent?
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that innocent smile which captivates
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Thursday, December 09, 2004
09122004
hmm. finally found a blogskin dat i'm satisfied. but dunno wat happened to my doodleboard leh. haiz. but anyway, its been donkey years since i last updated dat i dun even noe wat happened le... rEcAllInG....
but anywya as usual, been helping dad in the morning. den went shopping with Delphine ( my 'long-lost' childhood friend) on Monday at Heartland. hah. wat a good time i had. but Del quite poor thing cause i was super fickle-minded. so gotta deal wif it. been so long since i last went shopping. but my am i glad dat i managed to pay off my missions pledge le. Praise the Lord! bought a pair of shoes with slight heels. finally convinced myself dat i'll give heels a shot. blehz. dat reminds me dat i'm taller den my cousin who juz finished his NS. haha. but compared to the cg guys i quite *ehem*. lol. bought a travel pack to use for the camp. my had i a great time shopping. whoolala.
on tuesday my dad's worker was back. he was pretty horizontally challenged. but the thing i salute him for was dat he cld actually wear a long sleeved shirt EVERYDAY for work in such a hot and stuffy coffeeshop! but dun reali like him coz he does almost everything dat means i rot down dere. den feel bad getting the 'salary'. argh! by right pple wld enjoy getting money w/o much work but i juz HATE the feeling of it!
Daddy has been plucking mangoes so i'm having a 'lifetime' supply of mangoes. haha. anyone wants free mangoes? ask me. blehz. when i was eating mangoes juz now i was using a knife and i cut myself acidentally on my right thumb and second left finger. it hurts loads. esp i'm using the 2nd finger to type. haha. gotta be more sharp! praying for no injuries for the camp!!!
DADDY
Looking at you,
i realized how times flies.
Days haf past us by in the wink of the eye.
Time has drawn lines to ya tanned face.
Cuts on ya limbs made me think,
the sacrifices u made juz for me.
Age has indeed caught up nvr letting go.
being the teen i am now has not been easy,
for you and as for me.
Take care my loved.
i lurve you.
i juz realized how much Daddy has aged and how tough his work really is. wateva things that he had put me thru seemed all to be gone as i discover day by day that he indeed is ageing. in a way i felt that i gotta have other finance inputs so dat burden not so much on daddy. but i guess first priority is study den serve. God is my Jehovah Jireh. He will provide. AMEN!
that innocent smile which captivates
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Sunday, November 28, 2004
281104
its been more den one week since i last updated le. hmm. basically what i have been busy abt with is helping daddy at his stall at Jln Pari Burong ( doubt many ppl will know where it is anyway). super tiring when i sleep after midnite and to haf to wake up by nine. and those long hours of bus ride. hah. like a taste of working nxt time. but i guess it wld b different as the difference lies in the PASSION.
went East Coast on tuesday wif the cg. hah. Finally i know how to go to east coast le.. supposed to be a picnic but we ended up in a sheltered area. went cycling wif Jon, Nahum and my two sisters. Jaan Meng oso. my oh my. they r all so pro at cycling dat i ended up lagging. haiz. they even PURPOSELY stop to wait for me. budden it began to pour cats and dogs. and GUESS WHAT?!? rui fell down again! and i was the ONE and ONLY!!! haiz. gotta pray for sharpness and to be more careful. hah. the first thot dat came to me was to not let Joy know ( but she did anyway). and i feel so disfigured. lol. haiz. not pretty anymore. alreadi got one super ugly scar on my left hand le. wedding day muz get glove le. hah. but it was still pretty fun.
FINALLY i could go for a bible seminar! Praise GOD! the preaching was fab. ANTINOMIANISM( gnostic spiritualism & libertinism)! its nt legalism but ANTINOMIANISM that will abound in the last days. my oh my! when Pst Kong gave us a break, it was alreadi 930 but it felt like onli 8. felt as if i could go on till 2am. how pumped up was i. indeed that we gotta pray against this ancient spirit and to be equipped with the Word (= Sword of the Spirit) to fight against it. i wan to be part of the mighty army of the LORD!!!
went for visitation wif Su Ting and Jackie on thursday. and on friday i took 'leave' frm daddy to do tpt for choir. i was EARLY but the whole bus reached church late... nt bcoz of me for once. hah. for once. was pretty fun but oso tiring. i scolded Wayne on the bus coz he was calling another girl a chiken and a prostitute. kids these days. indeed gotta raise em up in the ways of the LORD. by the time i got the paper and reached home it was alreadi pretty late. mommie was pretty fed up wif me being home so late and i'm nt gonna b home till midnight e nxt day and it is YiYi's burfdae. hmm. but thank God mommie was very sweet today. heh.
muz reali learn to lean unto God and get His strength and STOP taking things to myself. LORD i need you! dunno wat happened to me. kept waking up after 1- 2 hrs of sleep on friday. but thank God that i didnt doze off or anything even though we went for double service. Pst Robb indeed rawks too! Dr Dennis was super cool. indeed dat christians r not out of date and we can be leading trends. i LOVE the songs he sang unto the LORD and the way we all grooved. I have fallen in love with the LORD!
hmm. business for daddy was super duper good for daddy today. we were sold out by ard 1.45pm. hah. which meant dat i was actually on my feet for ard 2 hrs non-stop. den 2dae we even had to clear the plates on our own which meant double work. was still in lala land in the morning when daddy called. went down in a cab and was calling the kids on the way down. attendance was very bad yday. we onli had 1 kid frm our area... haiz. so was very tired by the time i was on my way home. hah. my EZ-link card finally worked. dunno y it failed to work yday nite. nxt time cant b so reliant. gotta bring coins wif me da nxt time. hmm. so i went home and slept till six plus waking up in-between so wasnt very fruitful. went on to cook dinner....
its been one month le and i have yet to accomplish wat i want to do during the hols. hmm. i shall keep track of progress here so in the least i am constantly reminding myself and ppl can remind me too......
tIs wE3K... ...
* pack up my room and clear the mess in the cabinet
* finish E Maths homework
that innocent smile which captivates
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Monday, November 22, 2004
211104
+ Saturday 20/11/2004+
it was indeed great to see the kids of E01 once again. totally lurve em all. didnt see Hillary and Joselyn though. hmm.den Sis Wai Cheng gave chocolates she bought frm Germany. was marvellicious. den was very affected by some stuff that happened. i guess it was more of myself affecting my own mood rather than the things. been pretty high-strung easily. not myself anymore. had a short talk with kor before Barry came. felt so tired and i guess i was too harsh on Steph. she hasn't even called back yet...
Prayer ( Part B ) of VL was good. learnt about 3 out of the 5 ways to come before God in. gonna learn the next 2 ways next week. i was still pretty 'affected' by what happened earlier on that i actually flung a pen. but anyway after bs i had a talk with Barry. everything really boils down to my relationship with God. really! my oh my am i glad that i had the talk with Barry. reali helped me deal with everything better. i really juz wanna take time to spend in His presence, my first love...
Service was fab! Pastor Kong rocks! i thank God for such a pastor. he took some time to reali 'disciple' us and the way he preach... i wan to be yet another Pastor Kong one day! so reali gotta put the 7 steps of faith in making this happen... Desire, Decision, Asking (Praying), Receiving, Speaking (Confessing), Seeing and Acting. it was totally awesome...
+Sunday 21/11/2004+
wanted to go down for Jon's chalet and i hate to disappoint ppl. but stayed at home to cook lunch for Yi since she was sick and oso coz mummy screamed at my two sistas in the morning. so decided to be a good girl and stay at home den go for discipleship in church. as well as spend some time wif myself.den end up playing com game wif yiyi. and one thing i reali am gonna change is STOP being late for discipleship!!! but anyway wat Bro Timothy shared has reali caused me to ponder over many stuff...
- Discipleship Lesson -
ministry = getting to know God better and even more...
and ministry gotta flow out of worship.
3 things God is...
... God is a Faithful God <1>
... God is a BIG God ( = dun limit urself )
... God is a God of influence<>
* i didnt had my pen and bible wif me so i commited them to memory... ...
by the time we prayed and ended it was alreadi 8pm. and i was supposed to cook dinner PLUS i left the fish in the open. thank God dat it didnt rot. if not my head is gonna to roll. haha. cuaght the dialect bus home wif Sis Wai Cheng. haha. mine was da first stop. but tis is beside the main point. the driver was very 'attitude'. he was 20mins late ( and kept all the elderlys standing dere!!! ) and he purposely closed the back door when an elderly walked to the door and REFUSED to open it. juz dun get it. he will become old one day also. but i shall not judge coz God is e onli Judge.
here comes the main point:
i had a chit chat wif Sis Wai Cheng ( my tpt leader ) abt various stuff frm bbq prep all the way to her children and stuff. its reali nan de dat i get to voice my views and hear an actual mum's view on stuff. so reali blessed wif da opportunity. thank God! and one diff i realized is that adults do haf cg very differently. even the bbq stuff they get. hah. j/k. but as i chatted with her i became clearer of the stuff that i plan to do and as well as some of my fears. i guess its when u talk to an adult u become 'wiser' in some ways of thinking...
actually i do lurve the elderlys. they were all so sweet. like when i got down the bus some of them said bye and waved at me wif a loving smile. i do wan to become a loving grandparent one day... =p i miss mah mah and the soup she boils is juz so marvellicious... mah mah i love you!
+Monday 22/11/2004+
hmm. nth much for today except dat in a way i was at liberty to do things that i like. my 'element'. haha. went to work for daddy. supposed to reach at 11 but dat was the time dta i woke up. how slack can i get?!? haha. but in a way i have gone all rusty. service and speed all drop. dunno how to cope alone tmr so Ting gonna go down wif me. mwhaha. so we r back to me being the internal minister and she the external affairs minister. whopee! reached home at 4. my oh my i was juz super duper tired. went on to do housework free willingly. dunno why onli when mummy not ard den i will aurtomatically keep doing housework. wont slack or anythung. probably no one to criticize me den. =p been cooking the meals for the past few days. was quite fun actually. and i was right... mummy cant stay in her job! she decided to quit le. so its back to mummy doing da work. haha. but i have indeed grown to be more homely and responsible in a way or another. but mummy said dat she is nt gg to buy CNY clothes for me. must pay myself and start earning my own keep ( namely daddy and the tuition assignments ). hmm. i decided dat i shld start studying!!! its almost december le but quite a lot of my homework still untouched. dunno wat i'm doing. muz stop dilly dally le. okiez. my aim is to finish my e maths homework tmrw!!! gotta sleep le. if nt gonna be late for work tmr and wont haf e energy for East Coast. its a loooong day ahead... ...
that innocent smile which captivates
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